Intro to the 50k story I’m writing for nanowrimo09. Whee!

Just a note that I don’t care about proofreading and grammar. The idea is to write a story and who cares if it doesn’t make sense – you wrote bullsh*t the length of a novel! GO YOU.

Please don’t bother to correct me or comment with ‘it doesn’t make sense, you should blah blah blah…’ because, to those of you who are the English Police of the internet, I’ll say it now – I DON’T CARE. <3

Characters:

Akamine Kyou 赤嶺　鏡　- main girl
Tsubaki Saika 椿　さいか　- another girl
Akiyama Kaede 秋山　楓　- the loverboy
Panda-kun パンダーくん　- the other boy

Enjoy! <3

TOTAL: 602 WORDS

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I really don’t know what to write so I guess the first step to take is…

THIS.

YES I DID IT.

There are so many things I’ve accomplished in life that I am proud of (bear in mind I am a person of pride) and many of it was just simply taking the first step. But really that first step is quite pointless if it doesn’t have any steps to continue on the initial step. I mean you don’t just stop when you take a step forward – that just looks retarded.  When normal people stop walking, they stop with their feet side by side. Theoretically, it requires a half step forward from whichever the rear foot was. In other words , a person doesn’t stop walking forward suddenly. They gradually stop unless they’re playing a game of ‘Jack and the Beanstalk’ or ‘What’s the time, Mr. Wolf?’. Ah, primary school days.

It is a shame for me to say that I am a half assed person who only takes the first step, and hardly any steps come after it at all. Even if it meant it was for the person I cared about the most. See I have this pessimistic belief that no one can put another person’s life before them, unless it was for their own self benefit. Or that when someone puts their life on the line, there is a shred of regret or hesitance but by the time they realize it, it’s too late. Now this may come as an offence to fellow loved ones and all but forgive me for not understanding the meaning of selflessness in this kind of corrupted world. Actually, don’t forgive me because it would be selfless of you to do so. Save it for something else.

Although I do like the sound of the word ‘everlasting’, it doesn’t sound as fulfilling as I had hoped. It’s like a glass of water half full – it doesn’t last long as a full glass of water no matter how you look at it. The meaning of the word everlasting could be better applied individually to the elements on the Periodic Table for a number of reasons. One – there is equal exchange in every chemical reaction (forgot the proper term for it)which ensures that nothing disappears into thin air… but even if it does, air is something since it’s composed of 70% nitrogen and hopefully you know the rest.

There are so many things that I don’t believe in. Sometimes people try to exaggerate to make things sound better than they are, but I end up being more skeptical about it. It’s not to say that I am closed off about that particular topic, I still allow my beliefs to change although not so readily. I am like a rock… living under another rock. A photo can look different to me each time I look at it and my perceptions and ideals change with time.

Time is the universal dimension, the man-made creation based on the changing patterns and cycles of nature that links our existence and those of others around us together. It is the one thing that we all have in common with everyone and everything in this world, and in other worlds. I find it strange that I believe in life on another planet in another galaxy, but not in the intangible things such as pure human emotions. Not unless we’re loyal and loving to each other like our pet dogs might be like.

My name is Akamine Kyou, and I am trying to figure out a better way to say ‘I love you’.

Here’s what I came up for a translation for the song, EXILE – futatsu no kuchibiru [two lips/our lips/whatever.. I'm sticking with 'our lips'].

If you find any errors or have any suggestions please leave a comment. This is not an accurate translation because I’m noob and I’m no where near deep enough to understand these lyrics fully (LAWL).

I just translated it because this song drove me crazy and I had to find out what the lyrics meant… what Takahiro is singing <3…

Enjoy!

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I was my true self in the time I was with you,
Throwing off the clothes that were covering my heart.
It would be enough just to have our lips,
Communicating without words.

No one has a choice in deciding which star is to be born. [what the...?]
But when I’m here with you,
Where the time flows around in circles,
I cover your lips with my kiss.

If our emotions are measured with the strength of our embrace,
It would be enough for us to be lovers, yet
The passing miracle of this maze-like town
raises its voice, and we cry out.

When our lips meet, the Earth revolves,
And we chase after the Moon glow.

Wrapped up in the night curtain, we fumbled, exchanging our love.
I’ll cast a spell by brushing against your eyelids.
Will these hot things get through to you
A soft kiss will light up this Fire

Our passion will show if we’re hurting each other.
By exchanging a smile, the the burning heart will soon cool down.
There’s nothing to hide, I just want to protect you.
Because in this darkness, there’s only love to be found.

The sudden rain wets my cheek in the place where I thought alone.
Because the times when we don’t meet are decided by the shape of our love,
Don’t be ashamed, but try to look back up
Because a smile looks better on you than a tearful face.

Holding onto a sweet secret that no one else knows about
We search for a scenery that no one else can see

If our emotions are measured with the strength of our embrace,
I know it would be enough for us to be lovers, yet
The passing miracle of this maze-like town
raises its voice, and we cry out.

Our lips are pulled into the darkness.

*catherine

Romaji

Kimi to no jikan dakega hontou no jibun
Fuku wo nukusuteta no wa kokoro
Futatsu no kuchibiru sae areba jyuubun
Kotoba jyanai houhou de hanasou

Daremo umaretekuru hoshi erabu koto wa dekinai
Demo ima koko de kimi to deaeta
Meguriaeru made ni nagareta jikan kurai
Boku no kuchizuke de umeyou your lips

Dakishimeru tsuyosa de omoi wo hakaretara
Kitto futari wa koibito ijou nanoni
Meiro no youna machi meguriaeta kiseki
Koe ni dasazu futari de sakebou

Kuchibiru kasanetara mawaru chikyuu
Futari wo oikakeru Moon glow

Yoru no tobari ni tsutsumare tesaguri de kawasu ai
Mabuta wo nadete mahou wo kakeruyo
Boku no atsui mono wa kimi ni todoiterukai
Sotto kuchizuke de tomosou Fire

Kizutsukeainagara jounetsu tashikamete
Hohoemi kawashi kokoro no hideri wo samasu
Kakushitai koto wa nai kimi wo mamoritai dake
Yami no naka de mitsuketa ai dakara

Totsuzen no ame ga hoho wo nurasu hanareta basho kara hitori omou
Aenai jikan koso ga futari no ai no katachi wo kimeta no dakara
Sonnani jibun semenaide utsumuita kao wo agetegoran
Nakigao yorimo egao no hou ga kimi ni wa yoku niau hazu dakara

Hoka no daremo shiranai amai himitsu kakaekonde
Hoka no daremo mienai keshiki wo sagasu

Dakishimeru tsuyosa de omoi wo hakaretara
Kitto futari wa koibito ijou nanoni
Meiro no youna machi meguriaeta kiseki
Koe ni dasazu futari de sakebou

Yami ni hikare futatsu no kuchibiru

[Credits to http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/34350/exile/futatsu-no-kuchibiru.html]

Where would we be without them?

During product drawing class, I was inspired to rewrite the lyrics to K-Ci and JoJo – All My Life, because I am THAT karaoke deprived, and the song and copic markers just happened to click.. for some reason.

Anyway here goes nothing. Here’s the link to the song for you to sing along to [you know you want to].
Be happy it’s not me singing it to my lyrics LAWL….>_>”

Um… song is copyrighted to them ^, lyrics copyrighted by me? I fail at patenting crap or whatever >_>…

FEEL FREE TO CONTRIBUTE?! Group effort > my effort ;D

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I will never find another marker,
More SPECIAL than you, 110 [geddit... special black 110...]
I will never find another marker,
More darker than you, oh 100 black
Oh you are so squaretastic like no other [tonguetwister line ><"]
“One mistake, oh what a bother…”
“Oh my gosh I need more colours…”
“How much more is there I wonder…”
From warmer greys to cool greys, everything,
I must get my hands on them.

COPIC PENS~
I can’t get enough of you
And I can just refill
When the ink is running low
WATERPROOF~
You’re perfect on bleedproof pads~
Yellow, brown, green, grey, orange and blue ooooh~
Don’t forget red and… black, violet too~

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My stupidity ends here, can’t be stuffed finishing the rest of the song, haha.
P.S – red black and violet are grouped because they’re my favourite colours ^^… had to be done.

WELL, HOMEWORK TIME for me now… thanks for reading/singing ;D

*catherine

Catsby & Pucky <3

Finally an entry.

*insert typical uni art & design student rant here*

I need a life.

Anyway, the world is getting too small, I really want to move out and start a new life on Mars or even better, on Saturn’s rings. Come on technology… I want to go and befriend aliens already.

Mass production enforces the low cost rapid production method onto its consumers, and they receive a positive response, as opposed to the art & design world who believe mass production takes away the credibility of hand-craftsmanship, that each product of its own is individual and unique. Mass production is somewhat celebrated meeting consumer needs. Consumers get sucked into this via skillful marketing of mass produced things, therefore de-individualizing themselves because they’re convinced that they look so much better as a clone of another person, probably someone who’s part of a chain reaction of admiration. Society dictates these kinds of things.

Idealistically, if there was to be one of everything, and everything everyone used is different, innovation would’ve advanced much further. I have a never-to-be-proven, exaggerated theory that if everyone lived in their own little world, and had to survive on their own, they’d find their own way about it using their instincts. How they make use of the resources around them would be different, their sleeping patterns may be nocturnal, they might like to eat trees rather than meat, etc. What I’m saying is that imagine the possibilities one could come up with. We’re all individuals with our own way at life, though the concept of mass production is promoting a single person’s ideal to be reflected onto thousands of people.

[Yes I'm aware that if everyone lived in their own world, there'd be no babies to even begin with.]

I guess a more optimistic way to look at the idea of mass production is that although people utilize something everyone else has,and in the same way, there’s a shred of individuality somewhere in each of those ”clones”. Everything has a flaw, or an exceptional quality unique only to them. The beauty of it comes from when we discover those impurities and such. We gain a sense of self accomplishment and maybe end up cherishing that something more.

[I think I'm mentally preparing myself so that it's less of an unpleasant experience when I do end up with a shitty-yet-so-damn-common Hyundai Excel as my first car.]

I’ve started writing around 8AM, so excuse me if I don’t make sense.. I probably didn’t know what I was saying. All I was meant to do here was simply blog, instead I did a follow up from my 20th Century Design essay from Industrial Design Studio class.

I repeat, I need a life.

Thanks for reading!

*catherine

Warning: Long post. I did not proof-read.

Semester 2 is coming to an end within a month, and looking back, I’ve gone quite a long way since high school.

• From coloured pencils to alcohol-based markers
• From mechanical pencils to fineliners
• From cartridge paper bank/bond/bleedproof paper
• From -/+2mm tolerance to -/+0.5mm accuracy
• From manga sketching to technical product drawing
• From 5-10 weeks major projects to 4 week major projects
• From high school to university (LOWL)
• From staying within locality to travelling the extra mile to achieve something better

There’s more, but I can’t be bothered thinking.

One more thing. I’ve also achieved something I once thought was impossible… the ID favourite, [raw] EGGDROP!

I gotta admit, the projects that were given to us ID students could make any other fun-deprived uni student stare and glare in envy. But to be honest, I’m not sure if I can put up with next year’s work – the content gets more and more intense  each year, and I’m pretty half-assed about all of this. I have no self confidence regarding I.D WHATSOEVER.

Industrial Design is a big field, also very competitive. Doubting myself now isn’t gonna get me far. This isn’t a simple matter of ‘believing in yourself’ and ‘keep working harder’ for me, I don’t want to be spending the next few years straining my body, mind and spirit out for something I know I won’t last very long doing. This course isn’t for the light hearted, and I had to see to believe it.

By the end of the course I would’ve had enough of drawing and modelmaking, then come graduation I would run away, screaming, into the unknown… from the realisation that I’ve wasted three years, on something I honestly am not passionate about.

I’m doing pretty well in my course, but I’m starting to think that design is too deep for me to fully understand in order to be successful. I thought I was cut out for this, that I will be doing something that I love which is to draw the day away. I thought that if I loved to draw, I can draw anything and make it my career. Unfortunately it’s not that simple.

I love drawing people in anime style – my lifelong inspiration, to realistic portraits… and that’s it. When I pick up a pen to draw, it’d always be for that, never for product drawing, never for technical layout drawings which I had thought were just simply lines drawn with a ruler. Boy, I was wrong. I’d rather use my copics and all of my other ever so ripped off equipment for manga rather than product drawing. Life lesson: the way you sketch in manga is different to how you would in product drawing. The intentions for the same action of putting pen to paper is different…

Industrial Design-wise, I don’t have anything I want to do specifically to made a difference in the fast-moving design world. I’m not even up to date with it, so I don’t know myself what the trends and such are. What I’ll end up doing is designing for myself, for my own little world. It’s probably wiser to keep product design as a hobby if I’m only designing for myself.

Considering my circumstances right now, I should switch off to something else as soon as I can – I can’t see myself work in a studio. The way I see it, I’ll only be working in a design studio because I don’t want my three years of sheer torturous allnighters to go to waste.

After my high school graduation, I had so many plans for this year. Get good marks for my course, move out, cosplay at every single anime convention, karaoke karaoke karaoke, get a job, get my P’s and get a car. The life I’ve always wanted! But the only thing I’ve achieved is passing all my units… so far. What happened to the enjoyable life I had in mind?

Anyways my mum asked me the other day if I’m struggling with my course. I said that it’s alright, I’m managing. I told her I’m thinking of taking up another course next year and she full on supported my decision. She probably doesn’t like seeing me sleep late and doing workshop homework outside in the cold. But yeah at least I know I won’t get my ass whooped if I do change to that other course.

Bleh it’s been a long post and it took me two days to write this haha.. braindead. Well thanks for reading.

*catherine

I’m so damn bored today, I’m gonna give in to homework.

Yuh.. in the past few days I’ve had a few blogging urges that could not be fulfilled due to UNI COMMITMENTS. Now that I’ve found the time to blog, this is all I can come up with. Enjoy:

We’ve been working on this project for weeks and it’s really turned me into an obsessive perfectionist [and perhaps professional chromer... I can spend 9 hours breathing in toxic fumes per day]… 0.5mm now makes a HUGE difference to me. I won’t tolerate such inaccuracy no more!

Now that this project is out of the way, I have my life back again!!

Well.. actually no. Dammit. Got more projects coming up.

See you again, maybe in mid-semester break.

*catherine

Brendan the Rendering Block’s Name Anatomy

B – B[lock]
renda – render[ing]
n – masculine suffix, as opposed to ‘Brenda’.

Jung Yunho, give me strength! ><"

A person can work their way through life with a qualification or two. But the one I chose will put me 3 years of stress, all nighters and maybe no Facebook.. or even blogging! [my last post was yonks ago!]. And unless I am able to accept that, I won’t make it through my course safely.

For a certain qualification I am listing as a backup plan, it only requires a few months training or so. After that I’ll be all set to work provided I’ve passed. And the job prospects seem much better than what one would find in the industrial design field.

Industrial design is a great course and I was enjoying it so far, until I realized… there’ll be at least two more years of this. The pain outweighs the pleasure factor. Two more years of 1.5 hours travelling back and forth, spending my day offs at uni, all-nighters, spending endless hours with toxic fumes, dust and sandpaper… when will I find the time to get my P’s? How long until I will be able to learn the difference between a career and a job? Product design doesn’t occur to me naturally so I doubt it’ll be my career… I guess?

I know everything has its string-attached hardships, but some go to an extent compared to others. I love it when I have fun learning something new. I know I love learning something out of a good laugh. I definitely know that guys are not worth crying over, but it’s completely ridiculous if it’s over a course that probably won’t be your career after you graduate.

I worked hard to get into this course, but now I’m working harder to stay in it. Not sure how long there is to go until I snap. Others can endure much longer, but me, I always thought that if I don’t enjoy it, that if it doesn’t come to me naturally after multiple tries, then it isn’t for me. A screw-up that will cost me my marks is bound to come my way, I know it…

I’m losing hope fast for myself. I wanted to see myself at the end of all this, finishing Honours and start working in a studio in Japan. Now, I think I was a bit more sane when I said I wanted to be a nun throughout primary school.

*catherine

Having one of those "I LOVE MAIWAIFU" moments~

I know, lame title. But it’s the best thing that I’ve thought of today…

I was finding motivation to start on my projects by looking through my older artworks. I thought about how I was able to spend ages on them until they were finished. When I looked back to my current uni projects, I wonder why I don’t have the same motivation to even look at them.

But knowing me, it’s probably just plain lethargy. I guess it helps to find a bit of fun in what you’re doing in order to do it continuously… time to start digging through my project briefs! AHHH the horror.

MCAC Social Night was awesome! I got teary from hearing Konata’s dubbed voice in the ‘guess the dub’ game. It was torturous and disgusting!! ><” And it’s pretty interesting to see how many anti-yaoi guys just gather to see what a BL game is like. Not mentioning any names!

Other than that, futsal has started again. This might be the last time we’ll be playing together since some of the guys are graduating. The team from semester one has split into two teams: *insert the name of the Indonesian political party” and “Twilight Zone”. I’m currently the starting GK for Twilight Zone [the team name came about from our captain, who's a bit of a lost case... I'd say the same goes for some of us LAWL]. We won our first game! I didn’t do much -  it was the team’s hard effort in protecting the goals rather than me LAWL.

That’s all for now.

*catherine

ANYONE UP FOR ANOTHER ROUND IN A FEW MONTHS OR SO? ^^

One of the reasons I went was to find out my blood type. The other was to try something different. A bonus was that I found out that I could help up to 3 people who needed my blood! ^^

P.S – Please excuse my lack of grammar. I’m currently sugar deprived and still feeling half asleep.

Prior to meeting up with Helen Do and Bao, I went to grab some sushi for lunch right after class with Ruby. I was starving after 4 hours of messing around with foam-core. I watched my friends warm up for soccer in the *Chisholm hall* while eating…

Before I took a bite out of the sushi roll, AK came along and told me that I shouldn’t eat [within 3 hours before donating?], saying that my blood type will change. I freaked out because I didn’t want to give blood on an empty stomach or else I’ll faint, or to learn of my inconsistent blood type result. I didn’t know what to do… I didn’t want to postpone this event to another day either!

AK then told me he was kidding. ==” Idiot me had believed that my blood type could morph to something else. Too much anime influence!!

I rushed off to catch the train to the city. I finally met up with Helen and Bao and headed off to the Australian Red Cross Blood Service~ We filled in some forms and got interviewed by the staff. They also took a blood sample from the tip of my finger to find out my iron levels… the pricking device took me by surprise >_>. I was also told that I won’t be finding out my blood group until 2-3 weeks when they send me my results, and my blood donor card.

After the interview I was taken to the uh… blood donating area. They got the needle in and taped the tube down on my arm. While waiting for the bag of my blood to fill up, I was talking to Bao who was across from me, and tried to speed up the mL/minute rate by squeezing the stress ball in my left arm continuously LAWL. I got tired and in the end, took 11 minutes and 30 seconds to finish. The fastest Bao got was 6 minutes and the average time it takes for everyone is 8 minutes >_>”

Finally, they removed the needle and I rested with the chair tilted so that the blood gets to my head. After a long while, I went to meet up with Bao and Helen in the food area, who had finished ages before me~ I felt bad because they waited for me to finish so we could eat together~ ;__;..

We ate party pies and cookies and made our way to Footscray for some pho – to replenish our now-lowered iron levels ^^.  By the end of it all, we were super full and made our way back home~

So that’s that. Blood donating is a fun experience~ and it’s better to go in groups too hehe. I can’t wait to get my blood donor card~

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Just a quick note about Sunday’s VSA Futsal tournament. VSA Monash mixed team lost 3-0 against VSA Melbourne, won 4-0 against Vovinam, drew against VSA Victoria and lost against Hands for Hope. It was overall a fun day~ I tried going as midfielder/striker for the first time in an actual match, but scored no goals >_>”… every time I kicked the ball I slipped and fell haha… need to work on that.

One of the highlights of the day was David’s last second equalizer against VSA Victoria. I’m still not over it… it was that awesome haha ^^. David and Kevin played for Revenge of the Fallen at Monash last semester~ Another was Trac’s pro goalkeeping skills, despite that it was just his first time standing in goals. Oh and VSA Monash’s mixed results could’ve been much much worse if Michael wasn’t there. He pretty much played in every single position every match ^^. Also it was unfortunate that Paul got injured so he couldn’t play in the last couple of matches. The girls put in great effort into the team, though at first I was quite disappointed when they were saying how it was already predetermined that we had lost before we even started playing. It was pretty fun watching them play~ ^^

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Oh yeah recently I’ve been in lovesick mode. Turns out it was just the after effects of all the tim tams I’ve eaten due to PMS-ing. Who would’ve thought.

*catherine

I was packing my materials for uni and then something occurred to me. If art and design courses were to cease for any reason, for what purposes would we future designers use these ever so expensive materials for?

I’ve come to the conclusion… the tools that we utilise as ‘drawing equipment’ would then otherwise be known as ‘battle weapons for the Design student’. All this in preparation for any “Art Attacks” that are to come.

So here’s what I’ve packed in my bag so far this year…

• A1-sized folio – shield from paint bombs
• A1 paper tube – bazooka!~
• A1 cartridge paper, etc. – protection for the walls from splatters
• Masking tape – to mask your presence…
• Willow charcoal – use to draw on the face to camouflage
• Spray Fixative – chroming device
• Copic markers – portable chroming devices
• Face masks – anti-chroming device
• Fineliners – marking incision lines
• 3-4 knives/scalpels – self explanatory
• PVA glue – to build a wooden house/shelter (>_>)
• Methyl Ethyl Ketone solvent – for solvent welding plastic weapons
• Lab coat and goggles – performing lab experiments
• A3 folio – contains plans for potential weapons
• Cushion – to nap in between training sessions
• Ink + Brush – meditative calligraphy, like the way of the samurai…
• Digital caliper – accurately measures all dimensions of a puddle
• Ruler – swords [metal rulers are preferred, ALWAYS]
• Set squares – shurikens/daggers
• Bleedproof paper – …for creating bloody art work? O_O
• Bank/Bond pads – for printing money LAWL.
• Super glue – to glue… stuff… together.
• 8GB USB – data theft device
• Sandpaper – to smooth out every rough surface on this planet
• Laptop – for research and Facebooking.

Okay getting dead sleepy, gonna stop here.

Thanks for reading and good night.

*catherine

P.S – I may/may not post about the soccer comp today, but bottom line, it was awesome~ despite not winning Ah I’m such a happy loser.